Dearest D,

While it’s been disturbing to discover you go by no less than three different names (if one includes the various fictitious middle initials you use) and ever more disturbing (but not surprising) to discover your rather subversive sexual nature. What is particularly disappointing is the discovery of several of your interests expressed on the plethora of social networking sites of which you’re a member.  Many of which I share with you, your self-advertised interests that is—as I find the social networking sites thing to be pretty much a waste of time. Given they’re filled with socially retarded individuals who lack the social skills to interface in social situations in real time and in person. At least one interest I distinctly expressed a desire to explore with you when you were speaking with methe exploration of Tantric sexual practice.

On Tribe.net you are a member of the “Male Mindful Masturbation” tribe. A group whose moderator describes it as a group intended “for men interested in refining our self-pleasuring skills in order to evolve our consciousness through Mindful Masturbation”. Once again, rather ironic isn’t it? You claim to not think of people “that way”. Yet you’re a member of a group that is decidedly concerned with the exploring of one’s sexualityparticularly in the area of evolving one’s consciousness through a sexual practice. Of course, the greater irony in this discovery is my experience with you was to witness an individual who couldn’t be anymore less conscious of himself. So the thought you might seek to expand and elevate your consciousness (particularly through sexual activity) seems rather incongruous to me. But then again, you are a self-describe enigma. I would imagine the person to which you’re the greatest enigma is yourself.

On more than one occasion, when you were speaking with me, I expressed to you the desire to explore Tantric sexual practice with you. Which was met with, “We’ll have to talk about it.” and of course we never did. But discovering you’re a member of a male mindful masturbation group certainly elicits a WTF? response within me.

It’s interesting as I used to be the king (or is that queen) of a similar response “I’ll have to think about it.’” Which most everyone knows is merely a passive aggressive way of saying no. I was fortunate to have a good friend call me on it one time when he asked me if I was interested in doing an activity with him and I responded with my ever too familiar “I’ll have to think about it.” To which he replied, “I’ve come to realize that when you say that. It really means no.” We had a rather lengthy conversation about it and I was grateful for the fact he pointed it out to me. Otherwise, I would have continued to obliviously say, “I’ll have to think about.” as an answer rather than be honest with others and say no, it’s not something I’m interested in doing. Or I’m interested but would be more open to doing it this way…or whatever.

The other thing I have been struck with while perusing your Tribe.net profile (and you’d no doubt refute this idea) is that fact that you’re such a friggen playah. From what I can tell pretty much everything you told me about yourself in the few months you were speaking with me is a lie. The saddest thing in all of this is the person you’re playing the most is yourself. That is probably the biggest play of all. But hey, we all do it. I did it for years.

And what’s up with the “Throat F*ckers & C*ck Suckers” tribe? But you don’t think of people “that way”? Riiiiight!

As always, I hope this finds you well.

TGL